THE SPEED OF CHANGE
The Speed of Change
What it takes to modify the direction of your life: just digit sound call
2 days past I wrote an entry about my fears over the MRI construe I was due to have at the end of the month, and about what impact the possibleness results could have on my life. But how apace things crapper change! Yesterday, I had a sound call from the hospital and was told that they’re not going to construe me before my designation with my oncologist on 25th Apr after all. Instead I just have to move my CA125 murder test (the accelerator in your murder that is sometimes produced by ovarian cancer cells and therefore crapper be an indicator of ovarian cancer) a week before the designation to analyse that my levels are still within the nomal range, as they have been for the last 6 months. Then when I wager my oncologist I’ll find discover those results, and discuss continuation the construe with him. So it’s not exactly going to display the grand partitioning I was hoping for!
It’s every just a rank modify to what I thought was going to happen. Instead of going into the designation in 4 weeks time to find discover digit way or added whether these illusive spots on my viscus are cancer or not, I’m today just going to be to discussing it still further. I don’t mind that in some ways, I mean I understand that even if it is cancer then waiting 2 months to re-scan wouldn’t rattling be enough time for it exhibit much change, so continuation it so soon might not be very helpful in providing an answer. I just wish that I’d known that from the start because then I wouldn’t have spent the last 5 weeks bedevilment about it! I feel slightly more easygoing today I know I’m not going into the designation with my oncologist to potentially hear something awful, but at the aforementioned time I today have the individual of existence in this limbo status for even longer.
It is definitely digit of the most difficult aspects of existence ill, and digit of the hardest to try to describe, just waiting. The whole time you know what you’re facing, even if it’s something rattling hard like having to have chemotherapy, then you crapper focus on it and mentally educate yourself for it. When you don’t know what’s reaching though you are in a kind of no man’s land - I don’t want to adopt it’s going to be the poorest housing senario because if it isn’t then I’ve stressed myself discover and wasted 2 months bedevilment over nothing. However, if I conceive it’s every going to be fine I could be environment myself up to fall even harder if it turns discover not to be. So instead I have to try and walk the fine line between the two: accepting that it could be intense programme but not allowing myself to be so preoccupied with the idea that I stop living my life correct in the meantime. To be having to spend 2 months in this limbo was intense enough, but today it seems it’s going to go on even longer.
So, with just digit sound call what I have been trying to educate myself for over the last 5 weeks has been completely turned on its head. It seems there are no answers up aweigh for me after all, just a lot more waiting.
Em
A crushing expiration for preventive poppers
Seriously (for once) … this article today states that crushing tablets to make them easier to swallow crapper have disastrous results. Apparently that’s because some tablets are glazed with a substance that allows the drug inside to be free over a punctuation of time. If you crush them, the color is destroyed and the drug crapper be absorbed incorrectly by your body.
I thought it was worth flagging up here as digit of the drugs afraid is tamoxifen, a favourite sort amongst us boob cancer warriors. So be warned … swallow it whole.
And talking of swallowing pills, here’s some helpful advice for the incoming time you requirement to give a tablet to your cat:
1) Pick felid up and origin it in the flex of your left limb as if holding a baby. Position correct forefinger and thumb on either lateral of cat’s mouth and gently administer near to cheeks while holding tablet in correct hand. As felid opens mouth imbibe tablet into mouth. Allow felid to near mouth and swallow.
2) Retrieve tablet from floor and felid from behindhand sofa. Cradle felid in left limb and move process.
3) Retrieve felid from bedroom, and throw chewed-up tablet away.
4) Take newborn tablet from container, origin felid in left limb holding lateral paws tightly with left hand. Force jaws unstoppered and near tablet to backwards of mouth with correct forefinger. Hold mouth closed for a calculate of ten.
5) Retrieve tablet from goldfish structure and felid from top of wardrobe. disposition friend.
6) Kneel on floor with felid wedged firmly between knees, hold front and lateral paws. Ignore low growls emitted by cat. Get friend to hold head firmly with digit hand while forcing wooden individual into mouth. Drop tablet down, vanish individual and chafe cat’s throat vigorously.
7) Retrieve felid from curtain rail, get added tablet from container. Make state to acquire newborn individual and bushel curtains. Carefully sweep broken Staffordshire figurines from window stone and ordered to digit lateral for gluing later.
Wrap felid in large towel and get friend to lie on felid with head just visible from beneath armpit. Put tablet in end of drinking straw, force mouth unstoppered with pencil and expiration down drinking straw.
9) Check label to make sure tablet not harmful to humans, drink glass of water to take taste away. Apply sterile solution to friend’s forearm and vanish murder from furnishings with algid water and soap.
10) Retrieve felid from neighbour’s shed. Get added tablet. Place felid in cupboard and near door onto cervix to leave head showing. Force mouth unstoppered with dessert spoon. Flick tablet down throat with elastic band.
11) Fetch screwdriver from garage and place cupboard door backwards on hinges. Apply algid wedge to disrespect and analyse records for date of last tetanus booster. Throw T-shirt absent and fetch decent digit from bedroom.
12) Phone emergency services (fire department) to regain felid from tree crossways the road. Apologize to edge who crashed into her possess fence while swerving to refrain cat. Take last tablet from container.
13) Tie cats front paws to lateral paws with garden twine and bond tightly to leg of dining table, find heavy duty pruning gloves from shed, hold cat’s mouth unstoppered with diminutive spanner. Push tablet into mouth followed by large example of fillet of steak. Hold head vertically and rain pint of water down throat to wash tablet down.
14) Get friend to drive you to hospital, set quietly while doctor stitches fingers and forearm and removes tablet remnants from correct eye. disposition furniture class on way home to visit newborn table.
15) Arrange for local humane society to garner up cat. Phone local pet class to wager if they have some hamsters.
PS … forget crushing tablets for cats, too. No matter how coercive the smell of sardines you use to mop up the solid and trick puddytat into intense it, he or she will know there’s something filthy in there and walk away. Trust me. That’s the voice of experience talking.
Love to all
Sz…
Tags: mentality cancer, lung cancer, endocrine cancer, cancer therapy, boob cancer